winsome abandon

I am having my last office hours for GAL right now. In a little over an hour I will be starting the last class of my undergraduate degree. That is so weird. Over the last week or so I've had a lot of "lasts." My last tests, last homework assignments, last papers. It's definitely a bittersweet feeling. The littlest things have become really emotional. I really won't miss having to circle the parking lot for 25 minutes looking for a spot but I'll miss doing the victory dance when I find one. I'll miss walking through campus and seeing tons of people I know. I won't miss staying up all night writing papers. I won't miss sitting through hours and hours of lecture. I think it will really set in come fall when I don't go back to school. That is going to be really weird.

I'm not all that excited about graduation. Graduation ceremonies are boring. I don't even want to go so I feel guilty inviting people. I guess I just don't see the ceremony as that big of a deal. I would totally not go if that were an option.

I'll be starting my job the week after graduation. I'll be moving in with Lee Ellen starting next week. It's crazy how things have fallen into place. I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday and just thinking about how the last few months have been such a whirlwind. The most encouraging thing about it is that there is no way I had anything to do with it. What I mean by that is I could not have planned this out. If someone had come up to me a year ago and told me what my life would be like now I would have laughed. To see how everything has worked out is such a testament to God's plan for my life. I love it. It feels really great to be in His will.

It is such a relief to be able to let myself be excited about things now that I know I'm staying here. I'll be working with the board of directors for The Magdalene Project. We're putting on a conference in September so there will be tons of planning to do and I'm really excited about that. I've been trying really hard to not get my hopes up about things, just in case, so it has been really refreshing to be able to get really excited about stuff. :)

Well, I'm off to class. I am pretty stoked about it being my last class, however, I am convinced it is going to be extremely painful. Art history lecture in preparation for our essay final. No good. Enjoy the beautiful weather and some tunes to go along with it!

Musical selections for the week:

"Wait and See" by Brandon Heath (title lyrics)

"Closer to Love" by Mat Kearney

"Satellite" by Guster

"Skies So Blue" by The Rocket Summer