winsome abandon

I am old enough to know that time doesn't move slow enough...

Posted by c3 , Thursday, December 31, 2009 10:50 AM

I can't believe that today is the last day of 2009.

Absolutely blows my mind.

This year has been full of big moments for me. I started dating the most amazing man, I graduated from college, watched my brother graduate from high school, got a big girl job, got engaged to said amazing man, got rid of the big girl job, got a job doing something I absolutely love, helped plan an amazing women's conference, got married, celebrate my best friend getting engaged...

This year has been full of milestones. I gained a ton of family who are all absolutely wonderful. My new extended family is nothing like my extended family.

I could never have imagined what God had in store for me this year. I think of celebrating New Years in St. Louis with friends and just being carefree and excited for the future. It's crazy to think about how much has changed in just a year. It hasn't been easy, by any means. I don't really like change. I like being comfortable and knowing what's going to happen and when. I like to have a schedule and stick to it. This year has definitely tested me in that respect. I have constantly been in transition. Trying to figure out how to go from having been single for a very long time to being in a relationship, figuring out what to do post graduation, moving twice, having two jobs since May...

But I couldn't be happier. I have been stretched much further than I thought possible. I have been stressed to the point of having hives. I have at many times just wanted everything to to stop. But I am a better person because of it all. I have learned a lot about myself and I am still learning.

I am so excited for the coming year and everything God has in store. I know that things probably won't be slowing down anytime soon (Brett and I have only slept in our house 3 nights since the wedding) but I am learning to deal with that. So for now, I am going to eat breakfast with my family, play Wii Resort, and not think about all the thank you cards I have to write. I love you all!

Light by The Rocket Summer... such a perfect song! Check out the lyrics:

All I needed was a light in the darkest place
I've ever been in all my life
As I try to find my way in the changing seasons of my life
And my eyes don't see the things I'm living for have been course
Are they done? Are they just?
They give in

I'm old enough to know that time doesn't move slow enough
I'm young enough to know that I can ever be too old enough to trust you
Higher (and higher)
I want to go away with you
Some say your fire (your fire)
Is through
But I don't wanna think that way
So you lost your job and your girl
And it crushed your soul
And while you're standing at the fork in the road
So you wet your finger hold it up
There's no wind there telling you where you should go
So you try, try to trust
While you're bedridden

I'm old enough to know that time doesn't move slow enough
I'm young enough to know that I can never be too old enough to trust you
Higher (and higher)
I want to go away with you
Some say your fire (your fire)
Is through
But I don't...
Wanna...

I am yours, do what you wish
I am yours, I am yours and I know this
Whatever happens next is in your hands, in your plans
Nothing less
In everything there is a choice
Through the joy, through the pain I will rejoice
I am yours, do what you wish
I am yours, I am yours and I know this

Save me, cuz I need it
And I can't help but feel desperate
My desires seem to be coming to their endings
But I will trust it's not the end
But a great beginning