winsome abandon

I'm a sucker for happy endings...

Posted by c3 , Monday, December 7, 2009 5:44 PM

I think I've discovered the reason I haven't blogged since May... I mostly blogged when I was procrastinating something. I haven't had anything to really put off since then. But now, with less than 5 days until my wedding there are approximately 13 trillion things to do, none of which interest me in the slightest.

It's not that I don't want to get married... I'm just more excited about the marriage than the wedding. A good problem to have, I do believe.

I have been such a sap lately. I know it is partially because of the extremely high amounts of stress but it's just been out of control. I think part of it is also because I know my world as I know it is about to drastically change. I've spent most of the afternoon looking through pictures from my birth until now. Pictures of my family, best friends I haven't talked to in years, grandparents who have passed on, little league sports, birthdays, Christmases, Halloweens,...
It's weird. It's a weird feeling that my name is going to change. That is such a huge part of my identity (I think it probably is for most people). It's just strange. Unexplainable to say the least.

I've really been trying hard the last few days to not stress. Yesterday I just couldn't stop crying. I think it is in part to the fact that I haven't been sleeping well for the last few months. I am just exhausted. I knew we should've eloped.

Next semester I should be able to blog more. I'm going to have to work at it but I'll do my best. For now, I will leave you with some ear candy... I apologize for them being sappy... I've been in wedding playlist mode for weeks now... gross, I know. :)

Lemonade by Chris Rice (where the title came from)
Summer Song by Wavorly
Walk With You by Edwin McCain (I'm dancing with my dad to this at the wedding!)
Mama's Song by Carrie Underwood (I gifted this to my mom on iTunes... she's going to cry. I did too.)
Sweet and Low (acoustic) by Augustana