winsome abandon

"Finally found where I belong..."

Posted by c3 , Monday, March 16, 2009 12:38 AM

So, Korea is still a no go. Not surprising. And just as I'm getting really comfortable with the thought of staying here, I get thrown right back into confusion.

I may very well be able to start my dream job as soon as I graduate.
Working with former child soldiers in Gulu, Uganda.

So, this being my dream job and all, you'd think I would be jumping all over it. But I'm still tentative. I hate that. I wish that I really could have winsome abandon when it comes to following God's will. I just get too stuck in my head and don't let my heart lead me.

My best friend asked me if I would come home if I felt like it was dangerous... and I couldn't say I definitely would. That scares me.

I'm surprisingly calm about this. I am feeling a lot closer to God than I have been in a long time and I think that is a huge part of it. I'm actually getting excited about what He has planned even though I don't know what it is... which is something I have always struggled with. I know that no matter what happens, I am going to be okay. And for now, that's enough.

Recently played:
"Where I Belong" by Cory Asbury (where the title comes from)
"Little Flowers" by Denison Witmer
"Albertine" by Brooke Fraser
"Song to Self" by Travis